Yesterday, I came across this written by one of my all time favorite bloggers, Karen Russell:
At church on Sunday, our pastor talked about the fact that in order to really 'love' people, you have to be transparent - even at the risk of being hurt or having the things you share used against you later. And though I don't think I've ever really had much of a problem with being transparent on this blog, please bare with me while I make all of us a little uncomfortable...
She proceeded to disclose some things about her life that blog readers may or may not know about her. Basically it was her way of showing she is not perfect and does not share things on her blog to "show off" or make others feel her life is better than hers.
I love this so much. I love the pastor talked about really 'loving' others. Remember love is my word for the year. I strive to be a transparent person. I don't try to hide the real me. Take or leave it. I do write this blog to share with others little bits of our life (I don't think I have very many readers especially since I haven't kept up on it in the last year and half). But really I write this blog for my kids. I need to publish what I have so far into a book for them. I want them to be able to look back and see into our day-to-day life and into my thoughts about them, our family, our lives, and myself. I have never wrote this blog to pretend I am anyone I'm not or that I am better than anyone else. We all have great points and imperfections and things to work on.
It also reminds me that there are little messages all around us. You just have to notice them. It seems lately I keep noticing little messages everywhere about truth and honesty. It makes me want to go back to church. We had just started going a few months before my dad passed away and then we spent so many weekends working on the farm, we didn't get to go. We tried to go back a few times but found it hard since we were out of the habit. I really want to go back, hopefully I can hear some good messages like the one above (although it is hard to hear them over the craziness of my children).
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
This song would be the perfect accompaniment to my life at this moment. The new year didn't start out on the positive note that I was hoping. It's a good thing I have broad shoulders and good outlook, or I may have ended up in a pile in the corner crying. I am not perfect and will never pretend to be. I am a good person, I never intentionally hurt people especially ones I am close to despite what others think. I am what I am and I've never hid it here or to anyone else. This year will get better, even if it that "uphill climb" is going to be a lot harder than I could have ever predicted, but no matter what I will remain true to myself.
Posted by Runaway Farm at 6:25 PM
Monday, January 2, 2012
I am happy. Happy with things just the way they are, counting my blessings and loving myself and the life we have created.
Posted by Runaway Farm at 8:23 PM
Sunday, January 1, 2012
I always choose a word for the year. It's my way of doing resolutions. The word is my theme (oh, how I love a theme)for the year. I incorporate that word into my day to day life to help me grow as a person in as many ways as possible. This year "love" sort of picked me so we'll see where it takes me but I have some ideas in mind already.
2011's word was strength. I can't think of a more perfect word for me for the past year. I kept hold of that word all through the year .... so much so that I may just have it tattooed on my body. There were some big rough patches last year but I stayed strong through them. I know that I am even a stronger person now than a year ago, I am so proud of myself for staying strong. I wrote on facebook today that I was blindsided a few times this year but hope my vision in 2012 is better. That vision is going to be filled with love.
Hope the year to come is the best possible for all of us!
Posted by Runaway Farm at 12:01 AM
Friday, December 9, 2011
Elfie is being "bad" according to the kids this year. He has been doing all sorts of crazy things around the house like wrestling Woody with lots of on-lookers, a snowball fight with legos, building a snowman out of marshmallows, and today he's driving a tractor full of dolls around on the dining room table.
One day he drew on one of family photos. I love the mohawk Aaron has here:
I've have 75% of my shopping done and most of that I did on the internet. The only part of Christmas that I dislike is the shopping .... ugghhh. I like everything else: the decorating, the food, the events, the celebrating, the excitement, .... the gifts of what to buy, where to find it, how much we've spent, the limited time I have to shop and my hate for shopping in general is the yucky part for me. Of course without the gift what's the point of the tree with a big space underneath it or why would the kids be super excited? Enough of my Grinching!
"Maybe Christmas doesn't come from a store. Maybe Christmas, perhaps, means a bit more."I thanked Mrs. Collins for the early Christmas gift ..... Christmas comes once a year but we receive "gifts" all the time ... we just have to look for them.
Posted by Runaway Farm at 2:28 PM
Thursday, November 24, 2011
From our house to yours, I hope your Thanksgiving was as wonderful as ours was. The food was yummy and I am glad everything turned out. I always have turkey issues normally it's not done on time. Well this year it was done 2 hours early according to the button that popped out but I didn't trust it and kept on cooking it and it was just fine. Aaron's parents joined us this year so it was a small gathering but very fun. We wrote what we were thankful for and did some art leaf pictures -- all 8 of us. We ate pie and ice cream and cookies even though we thought we couldn't eat anymore.
The girls and I made these cute napkin rings yesterday for our Thanksgiving table. They turned out so cute for using toilet paper rings and scraps of paper that I hoard (that my sister always makes fun of me for saving so much of that kind of stuff). I love doing stuff like that with the kids. It's so much fun now that they can help do little things like this with me.
Posted by Runaway Farm at 10:32 PM
Thursday, November 17, 2011
I almost deleted my blog. I never ever update it. Seems like another obligation rather than a memory keeper. But I think I'll give it another go and try to get back on track. We just celebrated all the kids' birthday with one big Wizard of Oz bash. That's what our family costume theme was this year too: The Wizard of Oz! The kids were so cute!
We had 15 kids at their party and we played a lot of games/activities. It was fun (at least to me). But I didn't think ahead and get very many party pictures.
I worked on the party for weeks (as usual). Seriously I do love doing it. I love to think of ways to make things without buying them. The favor bags this year were made out of grocery sacks .... yes, I weaved 15 baskets from grocery sacks. I know, people are rolling their eyes, it didn't really take that long and it was free.
The rainbow cake turned out at 11:30 the night before it didn't seem like it was going to work. Each layer wasn't coming out the pan so nicely. I sure thought it would fall apart when I cut into it but it didn't and kids liked it and it tasted good.
Posted by Runaway Farm at 2:32 PM